I noticed how much I liked putting our laundry in the dryer together. Your tank top was tied around the cloth I use to catch my menstrual blood. The colors matched.
I did the dishes and I kept playing my game of pretend where we were something that we are not. Perhaps I am looking at what is missing instead of looking at what I have, but when I looked at what I have, I see a thin man older than me sitting at my kitchen table wearing head phones who has never even said that he loves me. But what I am missing is a dragon lover who would breathe his fire back at me.
It is truly a remarkable thing that we continue to open ourselves to love in this world.
God, I love you.
I mean, you aren't God.
Except in the fact that Thou Art God and all that.
But what I mean is that I cannot look away sometimes for how beautiful I find you. I get stopped in my tracks watching you dance. Your stuttering steps like the tango I never learned.
I tried so hard to dance with you that I forgot how to walk forward.
It was so much easier when I could just look at you.
i fell in love like apple pie in summer time with too much whipped cream, and the crust is burnt on the bottom. i fell in love as if i were on fire, and you were the only one with burn cream, please take care of me i screamed over a very civilized meal of steamed broccoli, sweet potatoes, and chicken thighs. oh, my broken heart has fractured into a billion pieces and been put back again topsy turvy in the disjointed mirror of your reflection, humanity. and i will fall in love tomorrow with any luck. this heart breaking open in the song of your beautiful smile, the mischief in your eyes, the recognition for just a moment that we are both blissfully, painfully alive. i cannot wait for the next moment of my love to unfold in the quiet heat of our desperation. and let us imagine pulling each others clothes off in the skin touching skin of me handing you your double wet cappuccino. I fell in love like diving into the ocean not being sure if I should use my gills or my lungs. this fish out of water has fallen in love with precisely two texans. only one of them said ya'll proudly, and I know I will find my soul mate.